Hello Guys, Welcome. I don’t know how longer I would be alive more in this world, that’s why I wanna write something about my story here so that someone would read it after my death, cause I don’t have anyone to listen about my problems, my dreams, my pain , my failure. I have  no friends, no parents, no siblings, not even relatives, and I’m done crying alone, I’m done failing Hundreds of time alone, I’m done being good hearted and I think Its the time to end everything,

Hi there, Its me Sam. I was born into a middle class family with no brothers or sisters, just me and mom dad. my father was doing a very little unofficial job on that time , but there are some curse in our family called “Brain Tumor” and for that motherfucker disease my father died when I was like 3-4 years old, but I think, It was not for that damn Tumor he died, It was for money, because he could be alright if we had just $6-$7K money for treatment, but we wasn’t.  after 1-2 months of my father death  my mom start doing a job but the salary was very little. but that was good for us because we were  only two, we start living peacefully, I still remember those moments when She feed me by her hand, how good were those days 😅, sometimes I miss those days very badly when I hit a new failure and got no one to talk with me 😅 but the most beautiful era of my fucking life doesn’t last long. after my dad death my mom also getting symptoms of that motherfucker, she might knows that but totally ignore that because she want to give me a better life that’s why she savings money for my future but never spend any money for her medicine or checkup, and after two and a half year of my dad death another fucking things happen to me that change everything forever, that bitch kill my mom too, but I understand now, if we just had some money for treatment just $5k-$6K then my mom and dad might saved but we wasn’t that much. then my angle like uncle and aunty adopted me and that was the worst gift from life to me, they had 2 child both of them was similar to my age, but my uncle-aunty never see me as a orphan they see me as a free slave 😅 and then what I became a jenie who obey their every single order. they forced me to do every single work of their house, i never disobey them even though they never feed me any good food, never bought me good dresses, only their own kids used dresses, never take me for a picnic, but they go with their 2 kid.  I wasn’t any other place to go, any food to eat. one day, when I became 15, I escape from that hell to a big city, I was completely unknown there but a old Christian men noticed me and i tell him everything, later , he manage me a Cafe waiter job and I start doing a job and finally get money at my hand, Life already show me that how valuable and life saver money is, so slowly I started figure out all possible ways to earn money offline and online. I buy a laptop by saving several month of salary, then i slowly started learning everything and that was the beginning of hundreds of failure, I tried everything in past 4 years including, 

earning apps + earning website ( Scam – money lost)
Digital Marketing ( No earning)
Thumbnail Design ( earn some but very little)
Video editing ( No Client)
Meta + Google Ads ( give 1 year but one client earn like $300 totall)
Arbitrage ( account suspend – investment loss)
IG Theme page ( failed) 
content creation ( failed) 
youtube copyright content ( Failed) 
androaid apps buy sell ( scam- big loss)
blogging ( failed )
Gambling ( LOSSS )
and then tik tok ads, I earn about $15K in 2025  (WHOLE YEAR)  doing Tik tok ads  (I lost that job in last december)
Dropshipping by tik tok money ( test 87 products but failed ) 
Binary Trading  ( failed – money lost )
forex trading ( big loss ) 
tried memecoin trading also but failed ( lost much money ) 

in my 4 years i lost everything and get back where I did start, My major income source are no longer avilable, not a single source of earning 😅

but Wait 

I’m not taking my life for just because I failed, or I don’t have money right now,, 

it’s because I had some dreams 😅

a dreams to became a multi millionaire not to buy or Show off any luxury cars watches or mansions , but building the biggest Hospitals in my country  for poor and middle class * Brain Tumor* patient to ensure  Completely free and modern Treatment 😅

a dreams to became so rich that I can use my money to build soo many Orphanage where Orphans like me could get right care, good food, new clothes , good Education and a goooood life that they deserve 😅

a dreams to have lots of money that I can use them to give a life to most homeless people that they never had 😅